I've learned so many things during my study life....! One thing I never forgot is learning how to change myself....!! I was told that before I tried to change someone, better tried to change myself instead...!! I'm lucky n appreciate myself for growing up in one good environment though I'm not really as good as what my environment brought to me..! I have so many good friends though some of them weren't as good as I expected; however, the way I'm walking on have shown not only me but also some people that it was a nice one ...! I did read and realized some informations related to one person I do appreciate the most for now...! He was born at same year as me though monthly is a bit different and the way he grew up is totally different from me though our lifestyle is officially similar..! Telling the truth I'm jealous seeing people at my age made their life successful while I have reached nothing in my life for myself! I did feel sad honestly was born in a poor family which I was not provided things I needed like what the man I mentioned above...! Thing i was concerned and hopeless the most was growing up in one society which provided me as well as others children nothing related to challenging! This is a result that gave such a very coward thing to compete with others people at my age due to the lack of confident I am!! I don't give a blame on anyone else for now since I myself is the one who never give myself a chance to try or even never want to try when many chances were given!! I afraid to challenge with people reality, but my heart did really love challenge! Turn back to the man I talked about at the moment, the way he grew up was truly opposite from me as he was provided what he needed as well as was born in a society which provided him a challenge as always...!! What I never regret is was born in a family with not only everyone in my family did support me, but every relatives gave me so many courages which I always thought that this is enough for me....! I have learned to change myself from what I thought I can't do to be a man who always think positively that I can do it....!! However, I still can't make it till now..! I might fall down , but I never stand up... That's what I am worrying the most in my life.....! Well, I stop compare myself to anyone now ! The more I think, the more fearful I am! I still believe that without trying nothing will be revealed...! BUT I myself HAVE to learn how to GIVE MYSELF at least a try ! N of course STAND UP n redo it once I fall down....!!! Still I need to change myself more than what I've tried !!!
