I'm too tired.........

Well, After the new semester coming i feel like ma world is empty... I'm too tired with everything.... Life, study are the most things which i mention..Study???? Well, I don't really understand what i have learned... Too tired to listen to the explanation... Too tired from the Mock words.. Too tired from being everything.One of ma friends asking me, "Do u think your life have no meaning now??" I don't know how to tell her, but i actually think like that.. I don't know with what i'm doing now, I don't know why i choose this major. I felt like now i got a wrong choice...  That's just a second years..i still got almost 13 years to force with all of those obstacles... So how can i stand that????

After heard that question, i started to look back to the other students which they're weaker than me. I think i still can understand alittle bit with what i have learned, but some of them can caught nothing from that learning. I started to think again.. How can they force to this learning?? Then i look back to the strong students. I can find that they were trying more than i think.... I wonder why they can, but i can't??? I keep telling myself to tried from the beginning, but those determines were always run out from ma mind... I have no energy now. Most of the people who lost energy, they just want an encouragement but i don't want it anymore. I got many encouragement from all everybody... even ma friends, ma family and also ma neighbors.. I'm asking maself... What do you need then??? One of ma feeling told me, u need to relax.. Don't do anything.. but the other one told me, No no u can't relax, you have to try... I don't know which one should i choose???? the 1st or the 2nd???

I sometime felt like all of the laziness were come from ma proud. I mean i'm too tired with that proud. It totally change ma life. I don't want it at all. I think Proud is seem like a Toxic which it can kills everybody all the time. So i'd like to suggest you "please stop proud of me." I'm not good enough to keep yr proud. No one can understand maself  like i do. I beg.

Well, it now seem like a long story.. I complain enough with that... And please don't be tedious with ma complain. Hope you can enjoy.. This's just a life.... No one can escape from this shit situation..... And i hope your life will be better than me....

Thank again for your reading!!! :)

What??? That's not what i've been expecting!!!

Ah!!! Feel really awful today. No study France at Aliance, late for a France class at USS just because of the shit traffic jam. Back home at 11am and left home again at 1pm. When i arrived at the class, wow i just realized that i have no identify card on ma neck. What a shit!! I got blame from the class-monitor.. Otherwise, i first thought that i maybe couldn't concentrate to ma teacher because i was unlucky almost half of the day!! What's an unbelievable!! I could caught everything from ma teacher's explanation. what's more unbelievable is about the 2hours  free. I really wanted to study that subject, but i cant cause my teacher was busy.... That's not what i've been expecting...

New semester is Back!!!

Well, This is the 2nd day of ma new semester! It's kind of weird because i got only 2 day for ma holiday..

First sitting in ma old table, i'm kind of tiring from listening and watching. 30 minutes was gone, the scream out loud started to get out from most of the students. I was sitting with ma 3 friends. We were all looking at each other and started to shake our head. Trustfully, even if i was too tired from it still i tried to concentrate to the teacher's explanation.. What a shit!!!!! My eyes started to fall n fall down...Nothing i can do now beside stand up n walking out for a face-washing.. 5 minutes gone, wow 15  slides also gone. I felt like this full lessons was gone too. What should i do now? i was asking maself.... Nothing i can do beside reviewing it at home... Oh oh tonight i maybe sleep late again........(T_T)