WHY MEMORIES???????

It should be a time to make a decision whether should I burn those memories or just keep it as a barrier for the up coming way I'll walk on....!!! I did decide to burn it since I want no longer stay in the past while the others were moved on already to their own future....! Somehow it feels like I myself is just a shadow who walk by ppl....! I'm tired n I want no longer live like a black-man this way...! I want to find my own world which ppl normally live in...! I want to delete all those memories I had with not only ppl I know, but also ppl I might crush in or the girl I used to love...! Though their footprints have already remained in here, my brain, but I will try as much as I can to remove it out..! I no longer want that kind of memories since when there's only me who want it to be remained! my life is here where I should be belonged to, yet I felt like I mostly live in the past where memories stuck me in! Whatsoever, I do appreciate somehow on what I have done since when this is me who always bring memories to be a guide! Well yeah I might end it up this way! Though I'll burn it, but that won't be always hide from my world since million memories had already got stuck here in my brain ! People might call me " Stupid " to never move on! but yeah I never think so and never will until I find out that life in the past is just a shadow while those million memories appeared  just only when I need at the same time as ppl who lived in my memories never want it back..! I doubt if I could let it be n be a new me who will never care about the past anymore!! Well it's hard to say, but I'll  try to at least tell the world that " I've already tried to change myself for no one else but ME. " I used to believe that everything is possible as I always keep thinking that " Everything is always started from Zero", but I'm not sure now if in this case I could really follow what my stereotype is! Since when life contains many tastes, I might accept the truth that one day " Answer will be revealed "......!

Why Do I Hate Myself????????

Have you ever caught yourself thinking " I hate myself  "???? Of course everyone has somehow..... There are so many reasons why people keep saying those 3 words... It can be when they say something wrong at the wrong time.... and it can be either when they were rejected.... I did have either... So what I hate the most about myself????? and why????

Being cheated is the most thing I hate the most.... I used to have that kind of experience since I was in grade 7 in high school... I was cheated by one of my close friend...  Well, yeah... I did promise myself that I will never copied this kind of action! and I will hate them forever.....!...... Of course day by day, year by year... I met so many kind of people... but yeah, I did have to reject those who favorably cheat as always..... This could be count as the most awkward moment I hate the most in my life...... BUT, I just realized that I did break my promise since the first.... Do you know what is it?????? Hmmmmm.... Yeah, of course I was cheated again by someone I trust the most in my life..... He is no one ,but MYSELF! This is why I said I did betrayed what I promised myself.. It only just because I never felt like I hate myself  as I did right now...........and it accurately opposite to what I promised... I feel so ashamed for what I have done to myself.... I should have waken up from this lying or cheating now... I should have realized my own mistakes so that the world will possibly give me another chance to re-walk on the road I am walking now........

To sump up, cheating my own is the reason why I hate myself..... I wish I could change this stupid habit so that I won't feel guilty anymore....:(((

NO MORE CARE - Ors Letta Pheab Merl Thae Oun

This song is talking about a man who really love a girl, do everything for her responsibly... Despite of being so care, she didn't see what he have done....... and Right Now, he has no more ability for taking care her,,,, He told her what he felt for what she has acted to him..... He asked her to choose another man who is better than him...

I made this video lyric by myself due to the love I have for this song,,,,,,It's my first time tho.... Give me some comments then,......

天晴-----FINE

如果说结果和你想象中的感觉是一样我愿意让所有的错误都发生在我身上买一支冰激凌

坐下品尝这是我们曾经都喜欢的大众浪漫却发现味道已经变了模样雨后彩虹一直在心里

隐藏我会不弃不离一直都喜欢着你是上天注定我的手心不能没有了你这样需要勇气你微

笑就是动力希望你知道明天过了就会看到转机玻璃橱窗里还挂着你喜欢的那套婚纱外边

的行人来来往往还是那么昭彰其实一切都是那么简单只要你喜欢不管外面的世界怎样为

什么现在不像以前那样只有你明白我心里的想法..............

我天晴了!

I Just Realized

Since i left my high school, i always thought that nothing such a big deal for our friendship... i can keep contact my friends easily bcoz we have each other phone number, internet.. Though we just text them a call or even a message then we 'll hang out with each other easily. But since i've separated from them, i just realized that everything are not as the same as i've been expected... Everything changing immediately....I used to think that they gonna keep contact us as we did but it was totally wrong... No matter how hard we were trying, all of the activities that we did together in high school cant even back to the same.... Talk till this point, i just take a look to a glass.. If it really break, though we cannot glue it to be the same... Just like our friendship... Since we have already separated from each other, though nothing gonna be the same.. Even if i've already realized that non day it's gonna be happen, but i still have a hope to be the same...... It's time for me to wake up from a deeply sleeping... I kinda wake up now, but i do have to wash ma face and clean ma tooth to enjoy ma new world... I need more energies to keep walking on ma own way.. Since you never thought you are not gonna walk at the same way, i did decide not to walk on the same way too....

Thank for all of your flavor that gave to me.. I used to tell myself that it's enough to me for this LIFE... After you show me that you have already melted from my life, though i have to find another flavor to fulfill my losing..Also i know that i need more taste to fill in ma empty... Since i'm not really important for you anymore, then i have to walk away from this old world too.... But i want you to remember that I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET ALL OF YOU NO MATTER WHERE THIS WORLD BRING US TO... Enjoy ur life, dudes.. i dont wanna be ur shadow anymore...

(((you tell me that it's dangerous to keep in touch, so what i supposed to do?? I have no chioce.. Since u walk away, i do have to find my own way even if i know it's hard to find such a good friends like all of you....)))

AMAZING CAMBODIA

Once again, Adda- A Cambodian Singer, has written another amazing Song that was talked about how amazing Cambodia is... She did wrote it into two version, Khmer and English which y'all can find out this amazing job she has made!.... Here it is "Amazing Cambodia"....

My Life in University..... !

Everyone needs to learn at least 12 years before they attend their life in university. Yeah of course, life in high school is pretty happy. It might be because we all are still young. We might not care about anything else beside learning and sometime joking. We play with each other, teasing each other, pairing each other etc.. And those were things we mostly did in high school. So what???? The hard task coming.. It was when the final exam coming for the Grade 12 students which is the last year in high school.... Many students hope that their life in University must be at least easier than their real situation right now. Yeah... I did hope that way either. I hope that my life will be more easy than I used to be once I attend my life in university... And all I keep waiting for is enjoying my life peacefully in university....!

You know what??? How was my feeling at the first day in university?????? Wowowow.. Awesome... Sitting with a new friend, listening to what the professors said for the whole morning, made me feel like my life in university was totally different now....!

Yeah sure!! My life is pretty easy.... I didn't have to do homework, assignments as the other students in the different universities.... All I need to do is only reviewed and either memorized my lessons at home.... Wow life was truly better now... 

Ooopp...... Staring at the news-board which is just posted... "500 students will be selected to attend the 2nd year".. My heart started to beat damn fast..... 1500 students will be cut into 500 students... First time I faced with this kinda awful situation..... I started to imagine how my life will be in the next next year.......

Life started to change from that day.... I had to be a night owl every nights.. I need to stay awake till 2am or even 3pm.. Remember the day I stayed up late till 6am and got only one hours to slept before the class start, makes me feel like my life was in the hell... I seemed to fly while I was walking on that day.. I promised myself to never stay up that late again in my life... However, my engine kept running till 2 or 3am from day by day... As a result, I was selected among those 1500 students and yeah I got number 29.. I thought my life will be much easier once I became a 2nd year student... Things weren't the same as I expected... It changed from day by bay, time by time... I admitted that my life in university is pretty opposite from what I used to think when I was in high school..

I found myself so different right now as I become an illegal senior in the next 15 more days. I used to be the one who rarely hang out with my friends. The one who always keep trying to win myself have changed to the one who lack of trying.. It might be because I don't want to be a psycho students who have a problem with my neurons because of STUDY. That's why I spend sometime outside and don't really spend time with books... I feel so tired with my life right now.... But still I keep continue to walk on this hard way... I believe that I'll make my dream come true....! I really want my life in high school back so that I don't have to handle so many tasks in this life in university.. But things seem to be impossible... We couldn't turn the time back as we wanted... Only I have to do now is keep going no matter how hard it is.... Su su, Kimhour! You will be surely successful one day...!